Tell Me A Story ...

Walk And Look

2010-11-21T04:39:00.000+08:00

To really see what happens in life is to slow down ,
walk it out ,
see around..
not everything maybe yours , but the imagination you have in mind belongs to you
try imagine the happiest thoughts you have , no matter the situation .
if you say you dont have , dont lie to yourself , cause no one can live with out happiness
you may want something , but the thing may not want you... so hold on to whatever you have, run a life with no regrets .. cause when at the end of the race .. you are proud to say you did well and you dont have to be afraid of accounting your life to God (:
Lastly to say,I LOVE GOD!<3

You and Her

2010-08-07T02:02:00.000+08:00

Looking back at trails that lead me here,
looking at the evening sky ,
i started to wonder ,
how are you beyond the stars ,
beyond everything that is in between you and me =[

by :me

Now people , hi so many things that happen recently .. its was all good till .... i lost myself to sin .
its irritating to keep falling for the same mistake over and over again -.-
was struggling to go up to move on
each day i live with a worry in my heart ...
will i ever try to leave God again T.T
I DONT WANT IT !!!
im very sacred of that feeling
i cant take the pain and desperation of something i love being lost and sad
and my other half is like dying and in total agony that im in TOTAL love with God
its just makes the other side of me dying ,
it makes me feel miserable -.-
But on the bright side , God recently has been with me 24/7 in the physical world !
He show me many things !
i was told by Him that he loves me!
and knows what am i going through
and will promise great gifts and destiny =D
but i have to put my heart in his Kingdom...
i will do my best =D

Father i love you , guide my heart towards the place where i will find You and your Heart <3

2010-06-26T00:01:00.000+08:00

THOUGHTS

Lets say i wanna talk about THOUGHTS ,
A powerful tool , a very dangerous emotion
A very loving decision , a careful trust ,
A bold love and lastly a amazing motivation
by : myself =D

what thoughts do you have on your mind ? love ? revenge ?
or the dark secret that you have been hiding ? anything can be on our mind .
Whats on my mind is someone i try my best to put Him there and its always Worth the effort
He is My Almighty Father =D
for other people ? put someone dear on your mind and spent the day , u will feel more rewarded =D
in the end you will be more happy =D

my life pace is " A step , a time for a breakthrough of a life time"

2010-05-05T00:53:00.000+08:00

LIFE IS ALWAYS BOUT CHOICES~
what u wear , what u wanna eat , what u wanna think , and what u wanna whatever u can think off ! =]
but there is this SOMETIMES where u dun wanna think but just enjoy being ordered around =]
and thats what im feeling currently XD the old post will soon be gone , the post i still cant believe i posted them XD didnt realize it was so EMO ! last time when i post one of them , i feel like wah seh another cheng story and chim chim english XD now looking back , cant believe that time i thought it would be so cool XD but yeah , it shows that i HAVE CHANGED =D so happy lah XD but im stilll not the best and still not perfect , trying to be but still trying so yeap !=D blogs revived and clean with a new "clothes" i like it =] so yeah thats all i have to say bb~

2010-03-22T05:38:00.000+08:00

losing control , how i wish lives are running on auto pilot -.-

its so late , i still cant slp -.- , my life is goin upside own XD needa study , i cant let me fire die, but its starting to burn out le -.- headache ! jialat lah , im goin bonkers to crazy XD siao laio hmm jus still wondering when will i ever control my emotions 0.0 needa have a very gd self control ! if not wah gg haha XD u will see me emo and have lotsa lotsa relationship XD and there comes emo XD hahah !!! lol okay not funny , but i really need help here in controlling my emotions ! God helped once ! but i really wanna believe he will do the second time XD its really hard to struggle through by ur own , i wonder how the chinese entertainer came to chc service and shares his testimony about his life , i wonder how he did it alone... he must have a very certain determination i guess , cos i had it once and it was so cool after awhile i kinda forget it XD haha so yeah i cant rmer it =[ but i can do it lah =] i mean self control over myself !!! =] hmm will do a proper post next time XD

today... was one of the most silent day ever spent

2010-03-11T19:18:00.001+08:00

empty voices echo through my head ...
conversation made were empty and vague...
my thoughts is choking me now ...
i cant breathe...
i'm falling behind...

i wanna move , but my legs wont budge
i wanna stand , but my legs gave way
i wanna look up at the sky.. my head hurts ...
its like my head and mind is goin in spiral ... round and round its like never ending ...
my head is in a mess..still falling apart..
i need a break...
i really need a break...
i seriously need a break...
I WANT A BREAK SO BADLY...

hai~ is not hello the hai , but the sound of sighing~ im so tired =((( i not pessimistic , just too sad for now ...
how i wish i can scream my heads off...

im having my doubts , losing the best of me

2010-03-11T00:16:00.000+08:00

i have nothing to do -.-

IF I LET YOU LOVE ME ,.. WOULD U LET ME BE THE ONE ADORE ?

2010-03-08T03:41:00.001+08:00

Hi , its quite awhile since i post , hmm its quite dramatic for me lately 0.0 too much things i kinda know will happen in the future , are happening ? like i have come to known of friends who are deep deep in trouble to others with a silent heart of despair that are around me seeking me for help ... i wanna help, i wanna do something for them and i did it , as for the silent heart in despair ... im really sorry ! i wanna help , but THERE IS JUST NOTHING I CAN DO ! i feel lost ~ and there u go , its okay , its okay , inside im like oh no !!!!! then i was lost for words and like nothing jus seems to come out of my mouth when im trying to speak.....its hard for u to shoulder and go through this on your own , i really hope that ...a Miracles will happen to save u from the misery... i miss the cheerful u where u go disturbing us me ,brandon and jon and lots of people? u were like a tons of fun machine packed into a person and was delivered to us by your most Awesome God ! and we were happy =] but now its kinda empty ... i hope that u will be more understanding and be sad about this and Persevre !down this valley of dead and deadworks ! i believe in u !!! my always best company no matter what ! =]] and life was hard for others , my friend had a problem made me had to stay awake through out the nite !!!!!!! tired ~ really tired ~ hmm i think thats why they mean by "im at my last straw" its gonna snap soon if im not wrong ...if it was applied to me .. i too had friends that had a jioyous occasion =] she patch with her bf which she says that seh is totally in love with him... and as for myself ... i think i had too much of things in life ... its making falling down fast ... im tired ... emotions, physical, physcological problems.. and blah blah~ so much to do and say ... so little time and space ... i need a willing heart in myself ! hmm so bored i wanna see the power of God manifest in my life ... i need a touch from heaven...

You are the only one that i promised to the stars~!

2010-03-04T01:51:00.001+08:00

hmm so long never blog le XD hmmm updates time =] hmm wah seh didnt know we the kings so nice sia! XD must hear their new album ! super nice ! i like promise the stars ! wah seh gdgdgd band^^ sian still cant sms ! hp still down! =[ hmm so sad hmm i gonna get a new jacket the very very cool de ! (cool on my context) XD haha ! hmm so sian lah XDhmm will blog properly soon XD

I WANNA WAKE UP IN A DREAM~

2010-02-27T07:39:00.000+08:00

HALLELUJAH-PARAMORE~

Somehow everything's gonna fall right into place
If we only had a way to make it all fall faster everyday
If only time flew like a dove
Well God, make it fly faster than I'M FALLING IN LOVE~

This time we're not giving up
Let's make it last forever
Screaming "HALLELUJAH"
WE'LL MAKE IT LAST FOREVER !

Holding onto PATIENCE wearing THIN
I can't force these eyes to see the end
If only TIME flew like a dove
We could watch it fly and just keep looking up

THIS TIME WE ARE NOT GIVING UP~
Let's make it last forever
Screaming "hallelujah"
We'll make it last forever

And we've got time on our hands
(We've got time) Got nothing but time on our hands
Got nothing but, got nothing but
(We've got time) Got nothing but time on our hands

This time we're not giving up
Oh, let's make it last forever
Screaming "hallelujah" (hallelujah)
Hallelujah

LETS MAKE IT LAST FOREVER ~!
hmm nice old melody =] hmm finish asura cryin ! nice animae man !^^
finished 4 animae
1st; kekkashi,
2nd;shakugan no shana
3rd;hitman reborn (still progress)
4th; asura cryin

like this animae alot =] hmmm ranking for me ?
1st; shakugan no shana
2nd; asura cryin
3rd; hitman reborn
4th; kekkashi
haha XD like them alot , and thinking about it im so bored ! entertain me pls?

Please allow me to make this last forever with u ~

In my darkest time , Your light shine through...

2010-02-26T22:49:00.000+08:00

Your light that shone through ~<3

i love this pic alot , hmm it reali is very nice =] hmm days are kinda boring this few days , have nth to post , okay here i pen off bb =]

Take a bite out of me ... and what do u taste ?

2010-02-23T23:52:00.000+08:00

hello hao jiu mei post le XD hmm like what can i say ? life is been the same ... nothing changed ?o.O
hmm tired ? ya ,
enjoyed life ? yeah ,
many stupid things happen ? plenty ,
good things that happen ? alot ! XD ,
think life sucks ? nah =] ,
learning guitar ? yeah^^ ,
feeling empty although filled ? argggh... umh.. yeah....
feeling pain ? YA ! 2ND piercing at the left ear XD and another place _ _ _ _ _ its still hurts if touched ..

in conclusion ? life is still worth living ! not because of the things but is cos my most precious God XD
hmm lots of new song XD lalala life is still quite boring XD study study cant really play =[ but its fine =]
hmm im so bored , my phone spoiled how stupid can things go ._. i cant get a new phone , and blah blah ... hmm so bored ! i keep my secrets safe ! and bring the ugly truth out of people XD haha joking lah ! jus craping , hmm i gota a survey in fb , think is true ?

Dear Ong Hui Chao, below are your Personality Tests result:

Who is your true self: You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Your view on yourself:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are intelligent

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Honest

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Sweet

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are friendly to everybody

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Don't like conflict

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Because you're so cheerful

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Fun people are naturally attracted to you

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Like to talk to you

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are a true romantic

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :When you are in love

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You will do anything

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Everything to keep your love true

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that pe

The seriousness of your love:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You like to flirt

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Behave seductively

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :The opposite sex finds this very attractive

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :That's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship

Your views on education:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Education is very important in life

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You want to study hard

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Learn as much as you can

The right job for you:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You're a practical person

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Will choose a secure job with a steady income

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Knowing what you like to do is important

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Find a regular job doing just that

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You'll be set for life

How do you view success:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are afraid of failure

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you d

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous

What are you most afraid of:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Independence is important to you

so what do u think about it ? ^^ great =] so ya i pen off here and enjoy the new songs they are nice to me =]

look beyond what u can see

2010-02-15T23:33:00.000+08:00

i saw three pigs , 2 cow , 1 person, 4 chicken, 5 monkeys, 6 retardeds XD

cny=cheerie !!! + valentines=lonely.... = cheerliy XD

2010-02-11T03:34:00.000+08:00

omgoodness ! im goin mad le >in conclusion what should i be ? i think i will add them both ! =] cheerliy ! =] sounds nice =] hmm so bored lolololol ... hais(one breath of air flown off) tell me waht to do ! oh ya about the spammers let them spam =] i dont feel the least irritating-ness they are trying to give me XD so many people tagged ya happy tagging let u vent ur anger here =] i just ignore the tags =] hmm but to friends i will reply =] hmm i wanna slp le XD its 3AM XD

lame spammers

2010-02-09T19:28:00.000+08:00

this the spamming they did lol

9 Feb 10, 07:21 PM

owner: okay lol lame -.- spellling also spell wrong -.- spammers do continue to spam =] its use less -.-

9 Feb 10, 07:19 PM

i hatensean kinston group: hey u sean get outa here ! we hate u !

9 Feb 10, 07:19 PM

saosin: woow so many people here

9 Feb 10, 07:18 PM

papa roach: (sreaming) hi !!!!!!

9 Feb 10, 07:17 PM

boy like girls: your voice ~! was a **** coming out my anus! XD haha joking sean like my new remix thunder ? =]

9 Feb 10, 07:16 PM

lady gaga: poke poke poke ur fats sean ! XD

9 Feb 10, 07:15 PM

hater of sean kingston!: scram sean kingston ! I HATE YOU move

9 Feb 10, 07:14 PM

Boys Like Girls: Hey hey Sean Kingston, why are you here?

9 Feb 10, 07:14 PM

The Mission District: Hey Guys

9 Feb 10, 07:11 PM

all time low: o.o why i there so many artisrt ?

9 Feb 10, 07:10 PM

katy perry: hi sean ! o.o ~<3

9 Feb 10, 07:10 PM

fall out boys: hi sean ^^

9 Feb 10, 07:09 PM

mayday parade: im sorry a typo

9 Feb 10, 07:09 PM

maydat parade: wow ! how did u know this blog sean ?

9 Feb 10, 07:08 PM

brintey: hello =] hi sean what brings u here ?

9 Feb 10, 07:08 PM

owner: lol hi seankingston umh u wait brintey wanna talk to u ._.

9 Feb 10, 06:02 PM

Sean.Kingston: YO MAN . YOU DONT KNOW WHO MY BRO IYAZ IS ? MAN, GO BANG UR HEAD .

9 Feb 10, 06:02 PM

Iyaz: Omg, im gonna call Sean kingston to get u .

8 Feb 10, 11:25 PM

owner~iyaz: so sorry no memory of sorts ... ps any ways nice knowing u =]

8 Feb 10, 05:06 PM

Iyaz: How the heck you dont know who am i?I mean,yoyo,IYAZ HERE! The guy whoose ipod is stuck on a replay!

7 Feb 10, 11:23 PM

owner~iyaz: o.o hihi =] who u ? =]

7 Feb 10, 11:40 AM

Iyaz: yo !

study study study

2010-02-08T23:35:00.000+08:00

Hi peeps ! i kinda back =] hmm jus update a very short post , went bowlling with my whoot hoo~! E507&E458 bowlling x fats ! i had lotta fun =]there were two games , i play the official match like craps last in both teams -.- but the second game i strike for 4 times ! =] so happy ! lol but its was so fun , then we went to eat =] all the biggest set of fast food in my life ._. king size coke , upsized burger and added with more bacon, and the largest fries ! wah and i cleared everything XD and i bought allot of my things for cny =] and ya thats all i willl update more =] and my syudy is improving by leaps and jumps ! whoo!

TELL ME A STORY ABOUT YOU AND ME ...

2010-02-04T01:13:00.001+08:00

Hi,Hi !

Letting go was all a small part of this never-ending story i have with someone that i didnt really know and appreciate..
its been almost two years that i know this person.. he was always there from the start, no matter how or where.. he just there waiting or looking.. till now he still looking at me , protecting me ...
i kinda really ignored him for this almost two years... but he is just still there unwavering ... firm standing...i loved his life but didt really care, its really kinda an irony ...but i really like him to be always there ... and there is just this few times or period i jus really cant sense him ... althought he is just there for me ... i can say i really LOVE Him ... this time i caps Him cos he is really one of the best person u can know on earth ... he is really someone i know and i will like your to know .. He is Jesus ... what i alll said just know was all true ! He was always there no matter what =] so ya i wrote this post is just to tell Him i really love Him =]

back

2010-02-01T03:27:00.000+08:00

its kinda long since i touch this blog ... *busy*
hmm......(wipe-ing the blog)
wah allot dust XD and anyways i gonna study really hard this year =D
gonna make sure i pass with flying colours !
hmm i been studying this pass few weeks XD so guai rite XD
and i kinda like it XD its quite fun XD ur should really give it a try!
jus sit down and try to focus on the paper it will work XD haha to those who are still looking at me blog
i maybe start posting again XD so keep a look out =]

ipod SUCKS

2010-01-07T23:14:00.003+08:00

MY very old friend jus died on me -.- and she is the ipod 'chao'
she is my once a very good music mate .. so sad she passed on
due to my carelessness of not letting her out of the lock mode
and then she bu shuang me , she auto lock herself -.-
and not letting me see her inner body . so sad rite
and there i was prying her open, and there she go saying im disabled
I was petrified and I tried connecting her to her brain(iTunes) but the brain
reject her . Then her body was gone forever inside that lock wood .
All the memories are
612 songs . . .
52 Pictures . .
And some long long compos of notes .
But anyways , Im gonna make her die soon . The hammer is ready <:
Im the murderer . Im gonna soon plunge the hammer into the hard casing of her's
and you hear the *CRIACK* and I will soon see her inner body again for the last time
and I will do a funeral for her in the rubbish chute. And 3 days later the RUBBISH MAN aka.
SONGKA MAN will collect her body . :D

Isnt it fascinating , anyone wants their laopo/laogong/ipod/itouch to die .
Do give me a call . (:
Im just a phone call away .
If you want my number , find her "body" MUHAHAHAHA

BANNED!

2009-12-28T01:22:00.000+08:00

the very big reason , i was not updating is that i was banned from com lol -.- dam sian now sercretly posting at other ppl hse -.- hmm dam retard .... jus cant use .. haix life is going to be even much more borning now , lesser entertainment -.- hmm so much things happen... hope that i can say , but cant so sad >.> hmm i jus pen here then
tata~

LIES...

2009-12-17T16:49:00.000+08:00

KOH JI MAHR
(Lies)

neo eobs-neun nae-gen us-eum-i bo-i-ji anh-a
nur-mur-jo-cha go-i-ji anh-a
deo-neun sar-go sip-ji anh-a....

continue of the previous post XD

2009-12-14T01:23:00.003+08:00

SUCK
XD
thats for the devil XD
you suck XD

IM IMBA !

2009-12-13T14:35:00.000+08:00

hahah ! im imba ! XD hmm nah nth to post le lah XD isabel my letter for u is at the older post XD erm okay
back to topic .. hmm i gonna slack the whole day doin nthing so ya and found 26 new songs XD wah can go liao bb very short post XD

                      y        y                  o oo o                   u                       u
                       y     y                  o           o                u                       u
                        y   y                  o             o               u                        u
                          y                     o             o               u                        u
                          y                     o            o                 u                     u
                          y                       o         o                     u                u
                         y                          o ooo                          u u u u u

2009-12-12T01:39:00.001+08:00

L-O-V-E

L-OUSY
O-VERATED
V-AIN
E-XPRESIONS

Thats is my title of today post XD to those who see this and find it unhappy , pls leave :D
thats 4 words i created my self XD cool rite? XD and anyways i rebon my hair !! whoo~! nice i like =] starting kinda hate it , but now ! wahaha! love it XD opps shoulden use love XD but i dont care XD aiya shoulden course of from what i do....

i am here to do this ...

TONGLEE

&
WENDY

tonglee how ur name fit hers =] and what i did?all i did is to make her forever urs , how ?
i told my leader isabel EVERYTHING....
every single thing that i had my feelings for her ..

its a no turning back for decision for me ...
cos i told her i will want to forget and give up...
and there she asked me to focus on God...
and i tell u i will focus on God...
and u can have no worries that i will snatch wendy from u ...
tl admit it...
u have the fear, if i were u and u were me ...
i tell u i will have the fear of she being snatch away..
last time i myself to watch over my action...
which will in end fail , and i will be close to her and fail to let her go ...
and now there is a person i want to prove that i will be ready for HIS great works ...
and u know who is he , God and i have one person to prove that i am capable to help her and thats is my leader isabel ... i have disappoint her so many time and yet she still believes in me ...
this time i can tell u this is the the hardest and most difficult test for me in the past 15 years of my

life.. but with this i overcome this test =] and make my God and my leader proud !
and the very thing i know very well is that i dont want to fail and disappoint them AGAIN !
so with this target =] i most probably wont fail =]

and ...

wendy...

...the very first time i post ur name at my blog >< ...
i WILL fufil the promise i have for you ...
tl dun worry =] all i promise her is jus to be her bro =] thats what she ask me to be =]
so tl now i wont be able to get in to a relationship with her no worries ...

and that i assure u =]
hmm thats all i want to say ...
reach my limit le ...
time to let go and rest ...
to isabel ... i wont let u down again ... this i will do my best to prove to u =]

i maybe immature but with this post , i make a commitment that i will not fall short of Him =]

isabel thanks for your guidiance on how to let go =]
i will be on 24/7 full for God now ... sorry this few days inconsitancy ... i was trying my best
to fight and i did won.
and last few days im resting . so isabel i am back =]
this time i am not joking =]

2009-12-09T16:12:00.001+08:00

KU LE......

(this post is a compo long)
Hmm long long ago ... i felt that i will post this

Omg i think can let go of u le : D i reali can le !
God said: its time to go and move on and let go of all my things and follow him ...
i was like God really ?? i can let go ?? : D , He said yes! i was over the moon ! its was byebye to u
in my life ! : D no more heartpains , no more heartaches , no more wishful thinking no more stress !
i am gonna be free ! YIPPEE!!!!

i dun like the way u do things
i dun like the way u present ur self to ppl
i dun like the way u think
i dun like so much about u ! XD God had givn me a way !
how can i live with u if u were to be my wife ? wah sure every day quarrel , okay lah dun say marriage, say
stead, wah sure quarrel until both damage until bu xiang yang sure headache..
i was so happy letting go ! its was so fun until ...

UR SMS CAME....

then now i feel like posting this....

i was like no !!!!!!!!!!!!!! wei sher merh !!!!! why why tell me why !!!!!!!!!!! i was let-ing go le! now i am really crying .... why at this time i letting go of u , u sms me ? jus see-ing ur name is enough for me to go crazy .... to the both side of extremes ... high like i was eating 3 big bars of sweet chocolate, super high : D sad until i like lost everything i have ... very depressing.... this time its the negative extreme.. i saw ur name on my hp ringing ...skippyskippydododium skippyskippydododium ..im a scatman~! there it goes ringing...somepart of me inside was .. screaming ... somepart me were rejoicing celebrating that u sms me -_- i noe its lame but , thats how i feel ... cant explain that special feeling ... then i was like God how ? He kept quiet ...then i was very confuse ... my mind went into a twirl ... spinning... spinning...
why am i sms-ing u ? then my mind i am falling .... slowly , question that came out of my head to
ask me , dont u feel happy sms-ing her ? dont u wanna sms her ? why are u with her? do you know ur limits ? are u sure that she is okay with it ? do you think he is okay with it ? hes ur good fren ! are u sure he is not hurt ? the worst question came out was this .... why didnt u chase after her ?.... im was happy to say that i defeated all the question... the last one the most painful but also the most easy one... very simple and straight . she dun even like me at all , she got a boyfriend .. a good one ... why would she even wanna care about me ?why do i needa worry ? XD but i was wonderring wor an lian ni so long , is reali love anot ?

if my love for you its not real i cant hold it my hands,
i cant feel it with my heart....so i will be conviced that i dont love you
......but.....
i can feel it in my hands .... the love cupped and hidden from view
i can feel it from heart.. it always so real .. the refreshing feeling always when i see you . why the refresh feeling ? cos in my heart the love is always wearing apart .. jus by seeing you it refresh the love and its in my heart .. the heart is in my body it refresh together.... wow how incredible love is ... and dangerous can love be ... incredilble till its save lives . dangerous till it destroy lives , relationships.
if u are to get angry that i love her ... to those who are angry , pls get a life , i am not some super human who can jus forget everything at a instance -_- and i am trying to forget im trying to let go ? for the past 7 mths its pure toture !? why? once i let go wah its super tong okay -_- dun force me , i know myself ... if thats too much for me . i will do smth stupid so i dun wan to let that happen ... i dun need a relationship to sustain me .. people pls dun think that i am a despo for realtionship : D cos i know that relationship its jus to bring each other closer , and having RESPONSIBILITY over the person , the things is i think now we have relationship is kinda -_- too young and not ready ... lets wait and see in the future ... what will happen XD to see my love for u is still burning so strongly like the past 7 mths...hmm maybe i saw ur answer le ._. u see me as a brother . a very caring brother not other else ... then if thats the case i will be ur best bro ! since the place of a lover was taken ... i still will stand strong to my motto , i wont go over the line ... but i will be at the lines edge ! hmm there this song that say how i feel ... bran u shut up im starting to like the song-_- the best of u and me by the mission district
why ? lyrics pls XD

chorus (my version cause no lyrics version so i translate me self XD)
~gotta hold on gotta hold on i dont wanna let u go~
gotta move on gotta move on and oh there something u should know
when the stars are what i see
it took the best of u and me~

wah seh super nice song XD my blog song is this =] u go listen bah =] hmm its reopened for awhile now soon this blog will be changed =] byebye readers ! =} tata~

those who wanna critize ths blog or what pls do so cos ur are retards of the world =] and to post also =]

2009-11-29T14:31:00.001+08:00

MAYBE THIS TIME ITS REAL...

erm.... its been quite long i post >< oh my my my XD hmm i m sick -.- fever ! its sucks man
hmm i do kinda reali wonder where are u now XD hmm im really no much better when ur not with me ><
oh my ilove that song man ! damm girl>aar ! whoo~! the song rock XD the lyrics ! wah seh ! the part i like

DAMM GIRL !
DRY UR EYES !
U STOLE MY HEART AND THEN U KICKED IT ASIDE !
NO GIRL U CANT SEE !
WHEN HES INSIDE YOU KNOW THAT THERE IS NO ROOM FOR ME !

u go listen to the full song wah reali is very nice =] and there is one sentence i like the most in the song "and i thought that i was all that u need" oh my XD so nice Xd hmm i kinda really sian sia , hmm like feel very sian for seeing you mia ! I WILL NEVER ASK FOR ANYONE BUT YOU ! another nice song is 'another heartcalls' aar also =] hmm wor hao xiang ni ... ni ner? wor hao ai ni ... ni ner ? u make me turn round and round till i was confuse ._. i am kinda blurr now ... that typo in that sms ! maked me like wah whoo~ but i knew very well taht its is typo ... but its was shiok =] i found this 'secretly loving someone is the best thing taht could hurt the most'

tahts all for today if i continue writing wah dun need end le XD tata ~

OMG I SORRY I DIDNT MEANT IT I LOST INDEED U DUN EVEN LIKE ME LOL

2009-11-22T01:23:00.000+08:00

ITS been so long after i last touch my blog , i forgotten about blog totally XD

its was so BORING~ this few days are like haiyo -.- so sian no entertain ment of any sorts XD
hmm hmm hmm hmm i improved on jubeat =] my girlfriend for now XD haha joking lah =]

hmm i kinda hate what im goin through now ? i kinda sucks ... going throught the turmoils of the tormenting life =[ so sad hor maybe its time to move but i fang bu xiao -.- i like a total retard in the making !
hmm i hate the way u look at me , its makes me fly
i hate the way u talk to me... its makes me cry
i hate the way u express ur self to me , its makes me soar
i hate the way u pour urself to me... it makes me confuse
WHY?
BECAUSE
I'M NOT YOUR LOVER ...
and ur are not someone i know very well ....
u are a total stranger to me ... u changed ....
well i moved on too ...
SORRY ...

TO SAY THAT ....
ACTUALLY......
MY GOD...

IS TOTALLY
FAR
MORE
AWESOME
AND
FASCINATING
THAN
YOU!!!!
and i have decide to follow after him than follw you =] i have much better friends than you if you want to be mine ... example , cheryl , wendy,isabel,jessica,esther ...etc so much more ! so i am sorry but i cant love you cause you are not even ready for love , u are so young about it ...

2009-11-13T14:18:00.000+08:00

its all back to square one again.....

lol this post is jus this short =] do enjoy it... hmm thanks bran for putting me in the same situation-_- and u suck man bran ... haix im goin back to the same situation so sian lah !!!!!!!!11 hmm aiya let see how its goes ..

2009-11-10T14:29:00.002+08:00

DONT U KNOW MY HEART IS PUMPING ?

YO! XD hmmmmmmmm i back ^^ to say nth bb XD tata~XD

its jus a joke hmm , okay lah erm like , when i was like so like whahaha to go tp on mon , then morning came ! i was like so wah seh monday le ! TP TIME! then i was liike wanted to rush there , then smth stupid happened and cropped up , and it made me late -.- and that made me even more happy and enthu to go the meet me funny family !!!! xD then i was reached and was enticipating a great and wonderful day spent , i was like waiting for this for quite long , then i dun wann say anymore , the day at TP SUCKED -.- thats all i can say , then it made me desperate for them to talk sia -_- then in order to let them talk i did smthing stupid , talked about their lives -.- then i made all pissed off -.- i was like wah sian , today is tue , totally tired and didnt dare to go tp >< wondering that 2 moro i have the courage to go anot hmm tahts all then bb folks XD tata~

2009-11-09T01:32:00.000+08:00

YO! hmm dam bored now XD hmm found something that discribe me XD

You are very Emotional witch gives you the gift of Understanding. You can easily see both side of any story. You feel people's pain and joy. It makes you more friendly and kind then others. Barley anyone can't call you a good friend. You also see through most lies. You read everybody... like a book. Even though most people love being around you, there is a bad side. You are more moody and harder to understand then others. Your muchmore passionate then other, so you get hurt much easier.You may be happy one min, but the next you could slide in to depression. You may understand other people, but it is hard for them to understand you.

yeah thats what it said so true XD hmm hope that i can let people understnd me =]

2009-11-07T02:15:00.001+08:00

TITLE: MY FUNNY THIRD FAMILY =]

Yo to all my third family! hmm lets see who we have ^^
JAF:MY???
CARMEN:MAMA
STEPH: KOR
ME
CT:MEIMEI
hmm thats all XD hmm i like the most is de ??? and mama XD funny sia ! hmm i duun reali call them like that XD cos very weird leis XD mama do calll me erzi ^^ weiwei not jokin hor she very powerful de ^^ one pretty lady okay ! XDDD then next is my ??? ! waha the shuai ge ! eh he got 'er nai' hmm he like another girl :x opps! mummy hen ke lian single parent XD the the funny things is that papa still on the race for the 'er nai' XD but still haven reach the endline ^^ mummy also soon will ahve one i think lah 0.0 but i dunnoe maybe not maybe yes .... and oh ya my 'siblings' XDsteph is a girls but she is a kor in the family dunnoe why =] next is ct , he is the girl in the family although he is guy XD then all together we made one family ^^ like them alot XD in the family all have their all roles
papa....slacker
mama.....blurblur queen
kor......intro stuff and draw
me..... the ah siao XD
mei..... the one who keeps saying that 'she' is not a virgin and saying that she always gets bang-ed -.- and often tease mummy ! so bad ! XD haha i do disturb also kekekeke !
we are the most happening thing in Tp ! whoo ! hmm enjoying my self that so fun ^^ hmm got so many things to say so little time so sad anyways hmm i gonna log off now super lazy to blog today >< so sad haha XD hmm i gtg tata~bb~

2009-11-05T03:50:00.000+08:00

TITLE: THE FASCINATING WORLD NOT EVRYTHING IS SO BAD ARTER ALL
Wow , 2 day i found out somthing today , so inspiring =] hmm its from a show

"Balto" hmm a show that can be life changing =] its so so so so so so so nice ! hmm i do encourage your to watch it =] hmm its very inspiring to me , because i can relate my life to it =] hmm its about that there is this town in a blizzard city , where sled dogs are commonly used , and Balto is a name of a dog , and i inspire to be like him =] why i will explain =] this town there alot of sled dogs , and they all dislike half wolf half huskys for no reason(wolf dogs in todays term is husky) but in the show there is 3 wolf dogs one is being discriminated and the other boasting in power ,so the boasting in power is big and strong , plus he is the leader for the elite sled team , so he has high authority over all the dogs ... and all the other dogs feared him , his name is 'Steele' and as for the disciminated dog is 'Balto' as you know being discriminated is being neglected is bullied,ignored,mocked...etc so he been through all of that , so ya , he is not very handsome and not very strong and big in size , so he was living with a goose and 2 polarbears , they are also like some exile from their anmial group the goose cant fly and the 2 polarbears cant swim so they just being kicked out... skipping alot of the show so that u wont know all(want you to watch it )there is a epidemic in the town, and balto has a crush on the third wolf dog which is a female, her name is 'Jenna' oh she is a beauty dog in the town ^^ the most beautiful dog . as then balto had a crush on her , jenna had a owner and the owner had a daughter , jenna is very close to the daughter , then the epidemic spreaded to the daughter and jenna is worried , skipping alot of parts again XD the hospital ran out of medicence for her if she dosent get the cure she will die , and so jenna is very sad about it, the town dispatched the elite group of sledder to go fetch the medicence from a train station 60 miles from the town, so steele was also intersested in jenna , but jennna dislike steele , so steele went off leading the group to the train station to fetch the medicence , why from the train because there is a blizzard goin on , no plane or ship can enter the town , so only the train can deliever it, so the team went and fetch the medicence and came back but half way returnig they lost their way home, they travelled in circles , so back in town the girl is dying from the diease so jenna is worried , balto saw it, he felt a determination in his heart and decide to go find the sled tean in the blizzard(the sled team are lost in the blizzard) so balto started off and almost wanted to gave up but he didnt he moved on and found the team(watch this part its super nice it shows how persevrance can help you) , and then movin on he led the sled team , steele didnt want him to lead so he went off first destroying all the lead to home and balto was lost then in the end thanks to perservrance he made it home
actually i missed out alot parts ur should go watch it =] its nice and thats all for today tata~bb~

2009-11-03T00:58:00.000+08:00

title:ITS PERSONAL...
Hi !!!! XD hmm im back for updates le =] wwahwah more and more people know my blog le ._. hmm i am like how ??? how all of them know de ? very question mark XD hmm i wanna state smthing now ....THIS BLOG IS TOTALLY PERSONAL, I HAVE ALL THE RIGHTS TO SAY HOW I FEEL , THE WAY I WANT TO EXPRESS THINGS AND WHAT I WANNA SAY , YOUR HAVE ZERO RIGHTS TO COMMENT ON MY STUFF -.- I DUN MIND JOKING COMMENTS, BUT ONCE I FIND IT OFFENSIVE .... OH MY U CAN KISS GOOD BYE TO SEEING THIS BLOG...AND I MEAN IT , IF IS JUS IRRITATING I WILL GIVE A VERY NICE REMINDER TO THOSE WHO DID THE MISTAKE... AND I REFER TO EVERYONE ....
pls do take it seriously =] and i not joking at all =] i maybe fun but if it bothers me , ya u know what will happen =]
anyways moving on^^ today was average ... hrrmmm slept through half the day ? erm okay not half but till 11 plus.... then someone msg me wake up, soon bran wanted to come over ... he smsed me in the morning saying'chao wan go bugis ?^^ i finshing work soon =]' i was like u siao XD then cont slpin , soon he came me hse then we slacked till my Tao came home , ask him for money , soon we went off to bugis enjoying the shopping walking around , and out of the most retard thing is that i jus bought on shirt only XD okay lah not bad =] went to the dicipleship at mac with the GM's ....at 8 it end homed to makan ! nice the food ^^ then went lan qiu ! then me skills improve le , time for celebration !!! no lah jus jokin XD but i fell down when i was playing with bran , a small graze on the elbow , no worries i AM dying from it XD no lah haha ! hmm then homed but among all the things happen today , the most exciting happen today is that i am asked to go to tp!!! for the clean energy course =] hmm its just a enrichment course till this fri =] but its gonna be fun =] hmm ya thats all le tata~bb~

hmm

2009-11-02T01:51:00.002+08:00

wah so long never post le XD hmm mia so long sure got problem de XD hmm i jus edited me blog so that i willl be more motivated to blog XD but i willl sure blog de =] no worries ^^ but eh why more and more people know my blog ah ??? so DANG ._. cos one person i never expect to come and tag came -.- its is ISABEL, i was like sermeh u at my tag box ? i was like stunned ._. okay lah, its not that bad XD at least you know someone is secretly spying on you ! XDDDD jus joking hmm anyways i will try to post everyday =] and oh ya hmm do comment on my post =] or whatever thing that is in my blog ? so ya tata bb~

2009-10-27T02:06:00.000+08:00

You are a person of Time and Attention. This means you are most touched when people spend time with you and listen when you talk. You enjoy to do the same for othe...rs. Time and attention are a great way of communicating, but when someone else you love doesn't necessarily talk the way you do, it doesn't mean they don't love you. What would be their primary love language? The downside of this love language can be people assume you are lazy because you take your time. Try to find out how hey treat you when they try to show love, and try to speak their love language back to them so they feel loved. One last point to mention is that God also communicates in your love language. He uses time and attentin, too. He says in the Bible that He loves you, that you are the apple of His eye, and that He wants you to come to Him and talk to Him. He loves you and gave Jesus (God Himself in human form) to bridge the gap caused by the fall of sin through which we cannot fully obey the law He gave us. He made the solution through Jesus, and when accepting Him, you'll accept God Himself, Who loves you, and wants to communicate with you. You are the attention, His focus. He is the same yesterday, today and forever. Yes, He is timeless, patient, for ever present, and eternal!

thats what my love language=] it kinda true and yeah i had somke revelation^^ its kinda cool XD anyways its jus gonna be shared soon XD and my jubeat improved ! tried extreme can pass =] but hard to play... and i really hope i can get a grip on myself =] and anyways its late gotta go bb~

WEAK.....

2009-10-25T20:29:00.002+08:00

title:WEAK.....

weak as i am, i am nothing compare to this world... no more drama le, gonna stop it... no mood le...i found out that i'm weak physically , mentally , spiritually.... i wont complain to you PAPA =] cos i know its jus a test =] a test that i'm going to fail soon >< falling down .... spiralling down ... deeper....and deeper....and SINKING ....... i am strong to tackle big problems, face them head on with a battle cry of victory... when small problems come ... thats when i fall down ... im weak to insult , weak to physical strength of a normal average 15 year old boy , i can do all the same things as them , but there are just some activities that require a strong body, all i have is a tiny fragile skeletal body that cant take too much pressure , mentally yes i can do it ! but physically my body is falling apart the moment i want go to the next level >< spiritually i am a man with little faith and hope... thats why i am writing this entry ! the devil attack me i fell flat to the floor, so this post is to remind me of all my mistakes ! flaws ! this test is allowed by PAPA so that i can know my weakness and improve and change it ! and now i know it i know that i can be proud to stand in front of the devil and rebuke him in the face of him ! PAPA now i know what to do le thx ! =] and thx for the free latte =] haha wah you bless me with a latte ! whoo~! shiok shiok~ haven claim yet , claiming soon =] hmm today i was like super fatigue sia ._. sian went home like that tired and all down ... but after tonight i will be better i guess =] hmm thats all for today then bb~

whoo~!

2009-10-25T05:45:00.000+08:00

Title: A mile stone made ^^

finally sucess !!! my new blog skin ^^ took me awhile for me to understand XD haha will be updating agains =] cya peeps! bb~

ps: hmm a new blog ... give your a task if your wan ^^ do u think i will fing a new girl friend or wait on ? if u wan to answer the question, u can post on chatbox as a 'pb' =]

THE LOVE I WON'T LET GO ......

2009-10-25T00:48:00.001+08:00

The break is over .... the crowd was gone .. there left the love of the world watching my show ... he watched with smiles and joy.... as i went up and begin to start the show...He stood up and gave a bow and he sat down to watch...the curtains drawed and the show started ...

hmm wondering what can i prove to you that i will wait for you no matter what ??? ive had it le here it goes ...

I DROPPED A TEARDROP IN THE OCEAN....
THE DAY SOMEONE FINDS IT....
IS THE ....
DAY...
I WILL STOP LOVING YOU ~<3

i will never let you go ... sorrry uh .... the urge to love you is getting stronger... i kinda having trouble to control it le... but i can assure you that ... i will not show you the affection =] because i know that i can control it =]

i have realized that i haven been really loving you since back then .......

2009-10-23T12:55:00.002+08:00

Conclusion ? Hear the tale i have for myself.... to the empty crowd ... hi ladies and gentlemen *a bow* now i would like to present how the next part of the story to you... and you will see how it goes....*people are walking in to take the seat* i was shocked , my heart felt so warmed and excitied... people are curious about how i will make the outcome of the tale .... audience now may i have you to be silent ...for the show is about to begin ....

what is Love ? Love has so many defintitions to it... one of it is just "...wanting good to come to another person, being concerned and willing to work for another person's benefit..." thats the basic things or foundation you call it .... but there is jus this few love definitions i know and i look up to '....loving someone is a choice...' and '...i will always be there for you...' and these two things i know myself that i can do it , i cant promise forever to you ...but i will try to make forever with you =] why this two ? the biggest reason is that i didnt really love you , i didnt make a choice to to do it >< so now i hope that i can make the choice to do it >< so i will make a stand to put you in my life 3rd in place=] 1st papa God ^^ XD 2nd studies...3rd _ _ _ ... sorry uh cant write out the three letter word >< cant write it... it feels wrong XD someone told me that i don't really like you that much ..so now i will make it a choice i didn't make a stand beacuse someone dare me to,but is really me myself that i want it =] i really liked it when you just smile... its just so beautiful .....and the person who smiled the the beautiful smile.... i want to protect her ... so i will make a conclusion to love ..sometimes in life all you need is just a small reminder to people , and it can spark of something great ! but i know that i can never be as good as him ... saw him ytd with you wah like its a beautiful image of love XD then i am like the super big extra there >< sorry uh... didnt mean it .... see your so loving it make wanna give up waiting for you ... because i don't wanna cause you any extra stress =] so now sorry uh.... i need you to have the burden ....cos you are something worth protecting =] and i will be hiding now XD in some part of singapore ... waiting for you to call me out to help you ^^ so my conclusion is that i will continue to wait and make a effort to insert love unit in my heart ^^ but i promise i will never disrupt the relationship your two have... i will not woo you or anything... i will just wait =] 5 months le ! haha wait so long le sure can go on de =] so another two months ? 4 months ? 6 months ? i will jus wait XD hmm this are just things from my heart...

"......My heart is like a piece of board on a platform , saying "...i will be waiting for you..." because there willl be so much people walking pass the board blocking it and causing you to not see what i have in my heart... and now there is a big poster you are attracted to ... i'm still a little board at a corner waiting till one day you will pick me up and realize that i was there all along ....."

a short tale written for you ....

thanks for watching ! the show has just ended =] wait soon for the next chapter for a new and exciting chapter ! *crowds are roaring with applause (tears are rolling down my cheeks)people throwing roses up the stage and whistling !* thank you ! thank you! for paying attention to a tale that wishes itself to come true ... the crowd left... but my heart felt warm even after they left =] then i saw someone came up the crowd .... he was shinning .. he touch my hand ... i kneel in front of him , cried and hug him .....

what am i suppose to do ?

2009-10-22T01:19:00.000+08:00

after a few weeks of struggle ?
whats the conculsion i get from people ?

after a few weeks of struggle i gave up ...|
the conculsion that came to me is that i am holding on for the sake of holding on ...

what am i suppose to do ???
after alll seeing u so happy with him is okay le >< people are different
they have very different view on people , u may think that the shirt look nice
but others may not think that way .... my best fren said i dun like her , another best fren said im
jus holding on for the sake of holding on ??? i dont know which to hear and heed .... i feel like a flirter myself -.- i dun like that feeling -.- its super retarded ! anyways i wanna give up ? and athe other side of me keep saying dun dun ! u love her very much ! i was like reali mah ???? then i haven been asking this question myself .... do u wan to live with her for the rest of my life ?
i wasnt hesitant to say yes ... but then this question made me change my point of view ....
would u feel happy if she called u laogong ? i was like stunned and i dint have a answer for that question ? it was like the end of everthing i dun noe what to say then i was like busy thinking about why was it like this ... then i realized what is urs will be urs, whats not urs u have it , u also will not be happy >< thats dam wah kao then ya hope i will come to a conclusion fast =] so ya thats all for today bb~

THE THINGS THAT ARE LEFT UNSPOKEN

2009-10-21T20:14:00.001+08:00

-drawing close to you ,

to have more of you,

i cant stop loving you ,

don't go changing, thats what i love about you .....<3

-looking back at the first time i saw you , you were nothing to me....now looking forward in the present, you meant the whole world to me....<3

-hate me ,crush me, destroy me,hit me,kill me....i would still love you the same...<3

-after breaking my heart into tiny fragments , i piece it together to form a beautiful colarge of you ...<3

-the hardest pain is not that i didnt have you ....is i miss you you didnt want me....<3
|
-ITS NOT THE OBSSESION THAT I WANT .... ITS THE COMPANION I NEED ....

jus will be waiting...

2009-10-20T03:30:00.001+08:00

What i wanted to say....... has been said by him.....
What i wanted to do.........has been done by him.....
What i wanted to show......has been done by him.....
What i wanted to show u happiness is.... has been given by him....
What i wanted to protect you from.....has been done by him

I'm just waiting for you tilll.... one day that u will see me there....
You just meant so much more to me.....its un-explainable ><
your happiness is what keeps me going on waiting for you ><
Sorry to say that i just cant let you go~
Its so hard >< jus to let go ... its just like letting go of a fave thing...
and the thing is my life.. i cant my life go><
after sleepless nites and crying days...
i still feel that i cant let you go><
no worries the line is drawn clearly~
that i wont do anything stupid or ridiculous
loving you secretly is sweet XD
enjoyable~ but the thing is that.....
i have't let go of you , but i have moved on~
so that if one day , you will ever like me ><
which i know that is like kinda impossible><
i can be a better person for you =]
its a choice of mine to hold on ,or to give up..
but i choose to hold on ><
i know that you will be unhappy ><
please dont be unhappy~!
because i am human...
human have feelings , i cant stop the feeling coming....
but i have controls over my actions~
so i am sorry ><
i will keep quiet about it...
i willl make no noise about it....
i will be there always for you...
just to protect you and keep you happy~
haha wonder what attracts me the most ? XD
the beautiful smile of yours =]
its mesmerizing to me XD
thats all i want ~
this letter is special-ly written for you =]
its written from where ?
from the bottom of my heart~
haha a stone just lifted from my chest =]
buried me deep inside is_ _ _
and now you have a boyfriend...
i think i will just...
i will wait for you~
you're just so close , yet so far~
good luck with him =]
gambatae~!!!!(jiayous)
with your two =] bb~
i jus wanna see you smile everday , its so beautiful .....

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        this time read the red sentence only =]
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             FROM THE TOP
         OR THE BOTTOM =^

what am i ?

2009-10-16T02:00:00.000+08:00

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and ...mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children.Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

Ong completed the quiz "What is your inner animal?" with the result Blue-footed Booby.

You are the blue-footed booby. You are unique, interesting, and different than most people. You are often easily misunderstood, but have uncommon skills... and an eccentric grace that intrigues others. When faced with complications, you dive deep into the issue to discover the root problem, making you an excellent problem-solver. In many traditional situations, you feel awkward and out of place, but your true beauty comes when you are soaring above small-mindedness and conformity and delving into the depths of the unexplored. You tend to think outside of the box and know how to think critically of things/people to discover any inherent weakness which exists. You always know how to keep things fresh and genuine, but find it hard to feel accepted by society and sometimes family members. In the right situation, you will amaze others with your natural beauty and special unique characteristics which make you celebrated. You have unending creativity and are sensitive and wise. Simply put, you refuse to "go with the flow" and that is one of your greatest qualities..
Ong got a message that on this day, God wants him to know...

... that nothing is exciting if you know what the outcome is going to be

You keep wanting to know how things will play out, keep asking to see the future. Go...d doesn't give anyone the power to know the future, because life becomes maddeningly boring when you know everything upfront. So, instead of struggling, enjoy the uncertainty - to be alive means to not know

i'm invincible

2009-10-16T01:06:00.000+08:00

now the world has changed, i have move on. a person with greater insight told me too leave u alone , u will never see me care about u anymore , u know i am talking about u , and i will not interfere with ur stuff anymore , i will jus stay at one corner of the world and ignore u totally , but when it comes to serious work we then get together and do things =] but after that it ur own choice to talk to me anot ... this will be the last talk ur gonna see me talk about u , until when i can talk to u , thats all i have to say . all the best to everything u are doin =] bb

the end...

2009-10-13T16:49:00.003+08:00

hmm curious what happen le rite ? hmm haha didnt think that it would turn this way >< hmm she didnt avoid me ... and like made them together even more today XD haha if u were thinking that wah i so da fang , not jealous , i tell u the truth it hurts ! each time they look at each other , they fang dian to each other my heart also kena the electricity -.- zapzapzapzap .....pain okay , but she was reali happy with him and he is also very happy with her ..2 day at d&t she came to pei tl lol, wah tell u the truth they super loving XD see liao almost buay tahan XD haha buay tahan what ? i also wan she like that pei me lah xD haha but ya i noe my limit wont over do it =] will draw the line super clear XD and the amazing truth is that she noe that i like her -.-
then i was like how u know ???? then soon i talked to them and then i ask her why she didnt have a single feeling for me >< ... she said maybe its because the bad impression ,jus dont Know why will not have feeling for u leh... in my heart ... i think i know the answer ....i think my looks and character jus cant make it to her standard .. i think so ya then so bored now nthing to do bi ren jia free , can someone give a response ? *the empty crowd* hmm okay never mind know that u are seriously listening , and i am bluffing my self that now at 4:46 is raining....
my shirt is wet , its raining teardrops again... always bluffing that the celling leaking water XD funnny rite ? *empty and silent laughter from a empty crowd* feel so miserable . but i fine a rest is all i need =] goodbye audience~ *wind swept the leaves off the wooden chair *

Somewhere Between All Our Laughs, Long Talks, Stupid Little Fights And All Our Jokes, I Fell In Love With You Long Ago

2009-10-12T22:55:00.000+08:00

no worries i am always at ur back , ready to catch u from behind and i know that u wont want me to do it .. and the very big truth is that i will never be good enough for you...a final farewell to you ... move on with life my dear .. watch your step this time i will not be there for u , someone has taken the role that i had been secretly doing for so long... he has officially and broadcast to everyone that he will be the one protecting u and behind ur back ....a smiley behind every teardrops i cried =] , go and i will be looking at you moving on with the next chapter of ur life =] ... the tears i cried u will never know... the joy i secretly enjoyed , u will have no clue , the love i have for u will never be made known to u ... i hate myself for loving u...from the start u were jus nthing to me now u meant so much >< a thing that i cant afford to see it sad, depressed, heatbroken... and always protecting you from behind not letting you know that i was the one ... and helping u with another person that u like ... i am jus like piercing my own heart each time i help... it hurts so bad, but to my point of view love is all about sacrifice. all i want is for u to be happy =] haha hiding in the dark secrectly liking u is really a tough job u noe ? but i enjoyed it XD i often say to my self that u have to like someone in order to love someone haha XD but sometimes its jus so hard to manage my own feelings , i have poor control over my feelings .... i am a 21th century guy, it means that i go by my emotions ... so i am kinda fragile, heart of glass thats what i mean a little knock cracks will run all over ...so ya then i have been trying not to fall in love to much but the love is always makig me fall so hard >< i liked u more than 4 mths le still going strong >< stupid hor ? like someone until bruise all over XD joke rite ? never seen someone so retarded before XD and the irony is that the retard is me 0.o ? haha XD i cant stop crying lah T.T There is beauty in the breakdown ... i dont understand the beauty actually >< but now its so clear to me now its a picture of tears and shattered heart , imagine that the tears are like diamond pouring down like rain sparkling with every sorrow, the heart red as ruby , shatterd into tiny fragments that glisterns with the hurt of the love ... its so beautiful ....so beautiful with pain... can i let go of her ??? thats the question that i have been running from >< i cant say out the answer :X so sad to spoil the surprise XD and well now my confessions.... i loved you for very long le >< heartbreaks are so inveitable isn't it ? it hurts !!! it really hurtss!!! its so painful till i cry T.T the reason to let me die heart is so obvious , but why am i still cleaving on ? i will always know that u will never like me !!! i am LIKE SOME UGLY PIECCE OF CRAPS IN YOUR EYES !!! a irritating person and thats enough for the strongest ppl to give up ... but i am so retard to still hold on !! maybe its the power of love ??hao tong uh wor fang bu liao shou , wor yao bao hu ni ! aiya ni yong yuan shi bu hui lang wor zhe mer zhou ...yin wei ni yo xin shang ren le , wor zi shi yi ge yi xiang qing yuan de da ben dan ! yi wei ru guo rang ni zhi dao 3 nian hou de wor hai ai zhe ni... ni hui bei gan dong >< pi !!! xian zai dou zhi dao wor yong yuan dao bu dao ni the xin le wor hao ben ! zhen de hen ben! wor xiang ni hui bi kai wor , zher shi nan mian de , wor wan wan dou mei xiang dao you yi tian ni hui ai shang yi ge ren >< hai wor mei hua shuo le , wor lei le , zhen de hen lei le .... yan lei liu guang le , li ye young wan le , wor xin xiu le, wor ke yi shuo ...wor yi wu suo you le....I
I loved u >< for quite long le haha, but al is coming to an end , but i;m lost hmm lets see tomorrow how it goes for sure noe that she will never like me de lah ... hmm now jiayous for being faithful to each other ur can do it =] all iwant is jus to see ur smile everyday , its so beautiful.....

poems i created ...

2009-10-10T02:02:00.001+08:00

oi bran take alook at these XD

No:1
Your the fireflies in my life ,
That brighten's the nights in my life...

No:2
Your the happiness in my heart,
Thats keeps me smiling everytime,
Your the sadness in my life,
Cos when your sad...,
I secrectly share your sadness too,
Your the life in me,
I'm not myself when i'm not with you...
YOUR MY CHOCLOTE <3

No:3
It takes two to whisper quietly...
It takes two heart to beat as one...
I'll whisper to you my love,
In my heart...swore to never forsake you
A heart for you <3

No:4
Your an addiction that i cant stop,
Your a temptation i cant resist,
Your the apple of my eye,
Your the sugar in my high,
Your the feelings in me ><

bran this me created de dun copy hor XD

at the party !

2009-10-10T01:34:00.000+08:00

hmm these are the photos at hendreson, cant up load at fb -.- so here is the rest =]

>>>>>>>>>tempted<<<<<<<<<<<

2009-10-08T03:04:00.000+08:00

hi to the empty crowd in front of me ... the show is about to begin , pls take ur seats and if anyones there please give a silent applause, for claps are not needed in this show... if anyones there pls be prepare to leave for the show is not very entertaining, now to the empty crowd... this is the beginning .... welcome to the life of mine ....

yo~! hhaa XD this is me =] haha thats what i can say to this lonely blog of mine =] pity u... i understand how u feel =] but no worries u have me and i have no worries cos i have u =] and hows the day spent today ?? i drank a red bull in the early moring made super energetic till the mid morning XD and oh ya nothing really happen today, and i went home to study, half way fall asleeep XD then woke up and study again =] then soon i went to find huizhen to help me in my maths XD haha hope i can pass =] and erm thats al that happen today ? haha wah i was tempted to go into a relationship ? i mean looking for one ? cos i found somthing that i want to fill in this lonely blog of mine XD hmm its super cool look

ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ
I LOVE U LIKE A PERSON THIRSTING FOR WATER....

cool rite =] haha XD
aiya i finish post le goin slp bb~ bye my lonely blog and the empty crowd in front of me...
i wish that U were in the empty crowd ....><

WAH SEH XD

2009-10-07T00:53:00.000+08:00

yo ! haha i'm okay le =] ytd... lets not talk about it =] ... so about today ???? i didn't go skool XD i was still slping haha XD erm i woke up at 3pm ?=] cos ytd lah -.- make me cant slp and stresssss! nehneh XP hmm today's day is ..... fine ! above average ? =D hmm i was like wake up then slack lor, staring blank space ? studying ltr =] finally for all my 15 years off my life i wan study ? rang bran up , he said that jon and him studying at 630 , then prepared then went off to find him at his house at around 7plus... cos suddenly change time.. when i reach there wah seh ! there got jon and zenhua liao 0.o hmm we talk and waited for bran to come out... 10mins ltr the bran came out , we were liek finally ! haha XD zoom off to mac.. foom~.. reached there and settle down , went to buy burger and eat , focusing at studyingfor awhile didn't play...1hr ltr ..tonglee came over then i started to talk le -.- cos tong lee will ask me Q then i will be like busying reply to him -.- but jon save me =D then we studied another 30 min we decided to go bugis ! we imediately packed up and we went to bugis.. on the way we were like choir -.- singing like siao XD then reached and then went to shop around ...by the way zen hua stole a bike ! then like we went home with it XD and i emo-ed for awhile 5 mins ? at the bugis i go crazy go dee siao the ice cream shop the things haha =] then soon we went home le ... on the way home me tire boom -.- then pushed home XD but okay lah thats the bad thing that happen =] and i was like super jealous of some one ??? hmm haha muomuo hide it bah =] OAKY BB~ thats all for today =]

Should i say :WHY ME !? or :YES ME !

2009-10-05T23:15:00.000+08:00

T.T...........................................................................wah what a super lousy day indeed =[
so many negative things happen wan think of positive things also hard >< the only good thing that i felt it happen was that i was had a feeling that i am in God's willl =D cos i wanted to glorify him in my studies ! so ya went to request for add elective ! so ya must see 2 moro what mr james lee say 0.0 and as for the negative part .... there is so much to say ! start of the day was like stilll okay..then slowly at the part of the days go ... wah it got from bad to worst ! -.- super retard lor -.- then lets see how do we begin erm .... first yf say wan study group , then i stay back for then the next moment everybody go home -.- like lol ? the hai me pangseh jon and bran -.- then i walk home alone ... its started to drizzle ... soon rain ... then IT POURED ! its like rain cats and dogs ? everybody like was in the rain is running faster than F1 ?foom ~foom~foom~ so many people run pass me -.-. so obviously i was wet .. so i went up to the platform, then i was like YAY~! bran ! i saw bran at the far end ! then he like also wave back o.o thats the joke .. i ran like whee~ as i was nearing that guy started to transform ! i was like bu yao !!!!! he become someone i totally don't know -.- i recongize the wrong person .. its not bran he was some other guy that from afar look like him only -.- than i was so paiseh sia ! then home then was tired slept for 20 mins ??? soon bran called and ask me pei him go mac find gerald i was like okay lah okay lah super slpy lor-.- went with bran to mac , the sian part happen.. i got totally NO mood to draw ?? i was thinking why ??? sian totally .. went to order double mac spicy and eat le go home then half way bran need pei shanll so he F1 zoom off foom~ but soon caught up with him XD then F1 together home XD at home du zi tong ! lau sai till wah my butt like split open like that -.- then the final and most hardest blow hit me .... my father was fired from his job....i was like on the verge of goin siao le...wah i was like enough ! enough !!!! i cant take it le ! then wah i dunnoe lah how am i gonna live sia -.- God i am urs,take me i am breaking down le then aiya dun wan say le ... its a bad day for me....tired~.... read the title again^^^^^^^^should i ? or should not ?

feel the GROOVE~

2009-10-05T02:48:00.000+08:00

yo ! haha XD so sleepy XD 2:34am ! haha posting the 4 october updates ... hmm day spent fun and sad ?? =] haha cycle to bugis wor ^^ but thennnnn its quite wuliao went we were cycling there XD hmm there is jon and bran with me ? =] we were goin crazy on the way to bugis XD hmm we soon reached bugis and we headed for the NLB plus i wanted to borrow some books =D but the in the end we didnt cos book fines -.- then i was hungry ! soon zenhua came along and we went to makan .. the joke is that only me and zenhua eating .. had my fill and tonglee said that he was coming... but in the end became pilot tonglee-.- then we went shopping .. i mean window shopping haha . walk around bugis , from street to bugis and then to street then to iluma then finally to the NLB . why ? cos jon wan pei jia li ! haha loving leh they two, jon want to go home so we release his bike then he went off ! f1 ah ! foom~[there goes jon , wah havin race ah ? thought F1 over already ? wah still have ah ? foom~] XD haha then me and bran and zenhua still continued to window shop haha XD then soon cycle home then ya then slacked at home ...-.- but i found something interesting XD and i want give it a try it suits skinny people ! finally smthing for me XD its TECKTONIK!!!! its a name of a dance ? its has some move that i like alot ? wah very happy lei wan go try haha XD very nice to me maybe not to u lah but its cool =] and anyways i wan slp le bb~

i feeling smthing stupid -.-

2009-10-04T14:22:00.000+08:00

wah sian this word keep ringing~ in my head 'lady lady one more try~'
wah seh super nice lor the song XD today is svc posting for 3 oct
then the svc is good =] and like 2 day also got ming jin prayer meet
it was superb ! the word was like wah seh *clapclap* its very nice and good
it went straight to me heart .. and ya he moved in te spirit , got laid hand
and like felt refresh again . then soon we go makan ! then eat le we go svc
soon after svc sec skool group must go home , then we went home, but i sent wendy home lor lol haha XD then ya its a short post XD
so ya thats all folks! bb~

hmm do i stll remember ?

2009-10-04T13:36:00.000+08:00

posting for 2oct -.- wahs need chiong 3 post leh -.-
and oh ya bran backslided lol and i knew it -.- jus didnt expect it to happen..
to random liao,then he like muchum cut all contact from the world .
hermit lol XD but okay lah in the end contact dao him le =]
but he jus like missed out all the goood stuff sia so wasted ..
ke lian him lor .. hmm then the entire helper noe that bran backslide
then they were quite affected by it sister helper cried
and i was like woah... stun lor , maybe to them bran is reali
that important ._. i will never noe... but i noe who is the saddest among all
its my FATHER GOD ... he will be in despair ! he loves bran allot raised to be a leader
then bling ~bling GONE lol .. hmm no one willl be sadded then HIM lor haiz .. hmm i want to be a person with responsibilty !!!!!!! -.- but okay lah nvm GOD will make a way , when there seems to be noe way =] bb~

Feeling all lonely again...

2009-10-01T22:52:00.002+08:00

wah sian lah T.T dunnoe what reason feel so lonely and sad T.T wanna cry ... reali wanna cry !
heard some super shocking news although its super old but to me its still kinda shocking 0.0
wanna kill that retard who did it to my close fren ! and its was like what ? and like wei sher mer hui zher yang ?! totally sadden by it -.- and spoil my mood ah ! then drew some picture will post it later=]
i'm all out of love , i'm so lost about u, i cant even forget..T.T why my post all so sad de !!!>{

angry !!! lalala~ haha XD i gone bonkers liao XD hate the world and the cruel-ness thet left for the next generation to continue ._. and everyone seems to have so much more.. but all i want is u <3 T.T and anyways went to mac with jon ,bran , tonglee and zenhua.. go there half way go find dogs XD then went mac and study for them, its drawing for me XD soon we left to play stunts =] but stilll dont dare to bunny -.- then went to find dogs again XD its fun ! we tried goin in but bu ke yi the hole to small and i dun dare go in cos super freaky and dark >< went home after that =] haha then thats all the happen folks enjoy the tale XD 2oct is brans burial and my burial too... that bahka !{jap:idiot}

true love is build in a trust that never says goodbyes <3

I'VE LOST AGAIN.......

2009-09-30T21:44:00.000+08:00

I'VE LOST.....
another defeat ... haix.... devil u reali are some irrritating pest aren't u ?
but i will stand again in his name !!! :p too bad in the end i gonna WIN
and anyways sorry God for dissapointing u again =[ but i will make it up to u ?=]
hmm another boring day spent , nthing much happen ? homed all day long ?
super bored didnt go skool and was like home for the whole day ?
to all the 'zai' nan , i have join u for today =] but only for today XD
homed homed and homed ..... and to make me day worse line kena cut !
sian ._. cant sms at all no one to entertain me =[ bored like siao and oh ya exam jy everyone=]
hmm i wan go le bb XD

everything came crashing on me

2009-09-30T10:47:00.001+08:00

posting for 29 sept ,
i saw much things and was astonished
really shocked like siao -.- look at the blog of someone
and i was like what wah still waiting ah? ._. then she got a new stead
i was like hmm okay._. i was looking thru other ppl blogs and seeing how they edit their blog
and i was like wah so chim -.- then like wan delete blog :D but didnt anways its hard to live
ppl are leaving and coming in ur life like a busy traffic way , nthing can stop it it jus keep on goin and goin
nth interesting happen to day, stay back for the d&t and went home didnt go vivo with jon and bran . was planning to but went home and feel asleep -.- woke up at 5 hrs ltrXD reach home at 5 woke up at 10 XD okay lah thats for to day nthing much to say bb~=]

everything has change

2009-09-27T15:59:00.002+08:00

a day that i realized every single thing has change
i cant even keep track of it.. everything my life , friend all change
except my brain -.- still cant get rid of those bad habit in life ...
ridiculous isn't it ? and my best fren brandon has change dont know what got into him
he said he wanted to leave God , i have nothing to say and he attitude change he
is very understanding usually and a very good listening ear =] but then like something
got over him or what.. he jus like boom ! started telling off the me -.- i was liike huh ?
the starting intention was to let him know that the cell group impression of him
i thought he wanted to leave a good impression in the cell group before he leave God
theni told him what the cell group felt about him . then he BOOM ! told me off and said i say things at the wrong time and say things that totally have no link and i am lame and etc
but the truth is yeah its true.. thats the way i talk ? i love talking parts of stories not full so ya
can say i deserve it and aiya i also dunnoe lor so ya i need go le bb =]

hello back for the second half XD fun day i went out with bran =] plus tonglee... erm bran said sorry ! yipeee bran has wake up le XD hhaha XD he realize his mistake le and i have realize mine =] so its a lesson to learn XD and but he stilla volcano =.= boom faster than people XD but he is fine he boom at tonglee lol thats lame but went walk walk with bran and tonlee they bought shirts and had fun then we got f1 craze woomwoom ! haha then went home after that =] then i emo cos alot things happen dun wan say about it :x then went home ! then ya hope 2 moro will be better =] bb